2004-04-23 - 8:28 a.m.
Am feeling a lot better today. I don't see how I can, I've been awake since 6am and I bawled my eyes out last night watching "Titanic" for the first time in light years. I swore I wouldn't, and I was pretty good until they played the final scene where she "dies." I usually lose it about there and last night was no exception. Me and David were watching it together and I realised something - we DO have stuff in common. Throughout the whole movie (and remember, this is a three hour movie) we talked and talked about the Titanic and what we knew, what we liked, what got us upset...I felt so at ease with him. I was sorta wondering why I wrote all that stuff I did yesterday. I think I'm comfortable around David...oh I don't even want to start, I'll just end up see-sawing between two radicals.
Mum and Dad come home from the Coast today. Kinda sad I didn't get to go but we've had a good time staying at their place. And Gemma comes home tomorrow! I'm so excited, I've missed her so much! I can't believe she's been gone three weeks, it seems like a couple of days ago we were dropping her off at the airport. She was so excited - not that I blame her. I would be bursting with excitement. She won't enjoy the plane ride, she hated it on the way over. I don't think I'd be very good at handling it either.
Me and David are going to the movies tonight for my incentive reward. It's my first week on this diet and I've lost two kilos. Thank GOD. There is nothing worse than being over 85 kilos heavy. It was the heaviest I've ever been. Eighteen kilos, nineteen weeks to go. I've really got to stick at it. I had my Caramello last night and then felt sooo bad about it I cried. I shouldn't have had it. Could've saved that little extra fat if I hadn't. But the searing pain whenever I move my legs is reminding me that I must've deserved it after yesterday's workout. My trainer described it as "short and intense" and bloody hell, that was it in a nutshell. Hence the searing pain. Ouch ouch...why do I have to work in a place where the people I work for have offices upstairs?! Grr...
Can't think of much else to write. Am dying to brush my teeth to get rid of Sultana Bran aftertaste but I couldn't find my toothbrush this morning. Gross gross gross. My teeth feel furry. Urgh.
Better go. Have to chase up some solicitors for confirmations on houses. If I don't do it no one will.
