2004-05-27 - 1:21 p.m.
Well now I don't care if I get fired (although I suppose it will look terrible on my CV/references). I just want to LEAVE. I hate this office and all the people in it. They hate me so what do I care. Plus I apparently keep making mistakes.
(Apparently now my office is tacky because I allow charities to put notices on my windows. Heartless, no?)
Now I'm ranting to my mate Nic about it and no doubt he'll get bored soon enough hearing about my life full of misery (that's an exaggeration by the way. Life is never that bad). Man, there really are times I regret doing things. Transferring here is the biggest regret I've ever had. That's a pretty tough call for me to make. Oh God I'm about to ramble, someone shut me up right now, PLEASE.
Okay let's start with what happened today, because that's just sooo interesting. Um...woke up at 6.15, went to the gym but was so cold ended up being late due to staying in bed and only doing 15 minutes cardio. Trainer bloody pushed my legs to near collapse but congratualted me on my efforts so I feel a little better about that. What I don't feel better about is the fact that I came to work and ate a whole bag of Health Plus chips cos I was so hungry and depressed about yesterday. I got to the bottom of the bag and cried for eating them all...this is a vicious cycle, isn't it?! LOL.
(Oh good, my boss is choking on his own saliva as I type, hehehe, the stupid jerk off.)
Had lunch by myself because David has gone to sort out this whole WINZ mess and watched Dr. Phil as per usual. I felt a little better as I saw a 400 pound man talk about his weight problems. I haven't let myself go that badly (yet).
It seems the shit falls after lunch...I walked back into my office and three of the agents were there, peering through my stuff and as soon as I walked in there was this halted silence - you know, the kind of silence you inflict when someone you're talking about walks in. It was EXACTLY that and I'm not paranoid. And they were looking through my stuff! The nerve of these people! Why don't I go shift all their crap from their desks and see how they like it...
And now it's 1.35 and I'm just waiting to see how the rest of the day pans out. I had a good talk with my dad about it all last night (God I love him to bits) and he thinks it's a pretty minor thing but that I should talk to the head honcho at head office about how much I despise it out here. If a position arose at Papanui I'd grab it before anyone else had a chance.
Anyway I think I'll shut up about this now. David and Mum just went to three different WINZ offices and were abused at two so she's just called me for a wee rant, which I don't blame her for. They're a terrible organisation. They've run circles around David which is not what he needs - he needs a fucking job for chrissakes.
Was very foggy this morning, it's only just lifting now. My car is a shit to drive when it's foggy, the condensation is terrible. Thinking of the day when I'll own a Mazda MX5. Ah yes, what a brilliant day that will be...
Better go. Have got absolutely nothing else to write and my fingers are sore.
