2004-06-18 - 9:07 a.m.
Yay, at last I can remember my password, I don't have to keep going back to my email to find it. You have no idea how big an inconvenience that was...
It's cold and raining but for once I don't really mind. It's been a while since it rained. I think if it didn't I'd be worried about Canterbury's winter. No one's arrived at the office yet (thank God) but apart from one little project I'll probably finish today I think it'll be pretty cruisy. It's Friday after all. I must put the heater on, it's getting too cold now...
I don't understand how to work that thing. Anyways what can I ramble about today, since the day has hardly begun. I'm babysitting Alex tonight and I'm real excited about seeing him after having an awful dream in which he died. It was so bad, I cried throughout the day thinking about it. In the dream I actually saw him in this beautiful coffin and I tried to bury him with his favourite Pikachu toy, but someone wouldn't let me. I was screaming "He has to be buried with it! It's his favourite toy!!!" Man it was horrible. I woke up shaking and crying, it was too realistic. I don't know what I'd do if a member of my family died, I love them all so much. I don't think I could handle it to be honest. I'd probably shut down and die myself, which doesn't sound very brave but seriously that's what would happen to me.
Apparently Mersey's become a real bitch at McDonald's...no wait, what did the guy call her? Oh that's right, a cunt. I hate that word but in all honesty it suits her to a tee. She has no consideration for other people at all. ARGGH that little bitch, I bet it was her who picked up the phone and told Drake that David was an uncapable employee. God I hate her. I don't dislike her, I actually HATE her with a vengence.
I have been going on about her quite a bit in here lately, haven't I? Maybe I'll shut up. David keeps pissing me off in little ways and I'm back to wondering if I just want to marry him for the sake of getting married. It would never be easy to leave him though. We've got so much together. We're trying to sort out what we're going to do for Christmas, because honestly the thought of staying with Fiona for Christmas doesn't thrill me. I'm always on edge around her, Queen's birthday was no fun, and now she wants to take us to Taupo with the family over Christmas. TAUPO?!?! Is she mad?! A holiday with her? Fuck I'd rather holiday with Marilyn Manson. Plus I wanna be here for New Years, it would suck being up there without anyone we knew. In fact it would be incredibly boring. We'd probably end up stuck in a motel room with her, arguing about some trivial thing like what we're having for dinner.
Sigh. Why can't David's mother just be normal? Not some cheating psychopath who's out to destroy her family??
Fuck it's cold. I can't stand being cold. I hate it I hate it I hate it. Of course I've now run out of things to say so I might just leave it at this. If anything else happens during the day then...what am I saying, nothing else will happen, I'm stuck in the most boring place on earth.
